Days 7

I was caught up in idling a bit that I had to rush writing for now. So for now I guess the only thing I can do is write until I fall asleep, and well, when you think about it it’s a bit of a challenge now that I can feel my eyes close at the same time.

We went to mass this day and I guess a lot of times things aren’t the same as compared to what we are expecting. This day is also the same. I guess what I am trying to say is that maybe I expect too much. But still something in my heart tells me that I should give it another shot and continue on, because what is happening may not be what I expected because it is still not time. But perhaps things are happening in the perfect time after all. 

Speaking of what wouldn’t happen, last month I was reading World war Z, the book about zombies. Im not at all scared of zombies before especially since the only time I get exposed to it are through anime and movies, and they don’t really pose a threat until they become dramatically increased just like in the movies. I was not at all scared about it because I live in an island and for one thing, zombies never really go to our country and they would easily die by just being in this place.

All jokes aside, I was truly bothered by the premise of the book being that the epidemic was spread by blood donations and organ transplants, and also the fact that the family members did not have a clue on what was happening and decided to do all means necessary to cure their loved ones. That just made everything worse. But then, because of the zombie outbreak I guess they completely forgot about how those zombies used to be people themselves and just focused on keeping alive. This is not wrong since this would be the natural tendencies of people. I just think that, given that fact how horrible it is to suffer from a zombie outbreak because once you see a loved one infected they’re as good as dead and you wont even have time to grieve anymore. That would probably kill me more than the outbreak itself.

Another scary thing about it is the economic fall caused by this zombie outbreak. People will soon be subject to limited technology and resources that it would cause at least half of the population to starve. It’s like the past wars again, but this time, the whole world is involved. I guess being a Filipino would be a good thing or maybe my circumstances would be, I mean I would be better off than the people in the book. I know basic skills such as planting, looking for food, cleaning, doing minor repairs and all the works to make myself self sufficient. I guess that is something to be thankful for. Nevertheless, if the zombie wars did happen it would mean that all the hard work I’ve been subjecting myself to in my investments and protecting my future will be for naught. And by the time I get old I would still be poor, I think that would be really hard on me. 

Still, the one thing that assures me above all this is that I believe in God, and if these things do happen relying on God isn’t such a bad thing. Besides, I am overthinking too much. I mean, would he really let this nightmare happen? When I ask this to myself I feel relieve. Again, this is another thing to be thankful for.