KFA Writing

Finally! It's the last day of the challenge. I was afraid I wouldnt make it at first, as I have a tendency to quit in the middle of things. But I'm so happy that I persisted. And anyway, this feels like i am about to conquer the last boss in a quest. But yeah, after the final boss you have to look for another place, explore it and beat the boss again in that level. It is just so fulfilling to have some kind of sign thatyou are actually doing things and finishing it. What I learned in this challenge is that it doesnt has to be formal, or planned. Most of the time I just write what I want to write and it was what has sustained me in over the 30 days. There were times when I couldnt think of anything to write but would just go along writing anyway. There were times when I didnt write at all. Despite this, after another day I push myself to continue writing.  Back then, things have to be planned, what I have to say has to have a background, an  outline. And then, when I am about t...

Thinking about building my funds and then I thought... There really has to be a time when I go on and face the music, to stop denying that everything is alright, and that I can simply do the things I want for such a long time. How did it come to this? For starters, things definitely got reset when I quit my former job and chose something closer to home. Then you realize that, compared to always being in the center of the action and attention, I am more inclined to being alone and writing things, the kind  I  always do these times. Before I knew it, I reverted back to the person I once was back in my student years, in my first job, the kind of person who is silent most of the time and would be shy and more reserved. With the exception of my friends in audit, many would believe me to be a shy, reserved boring type of girl. I dont blame them. What I learned is that it surely does take a lot from me to always be the laughing stock of all my friends, and to have the reputation that...

Just a few more days. Lately, I feel like I always hear myself say this line. Like, in the past few months I am living from paycheck to paycheck, with only a few days only eager to wait for the next. Admittedly, I dont see any growth in my income, and I feel very frustrated about it.Right now is not any better. Only that, I only see what is presently happening. For example, this whole project has led me to 28 days of forcing myself to write even though I dont feel like it at times. There were days when the laziness just kicks in and I wouldnt even write for the day. The longest ditching dsy I had was for four straight days. Still, I pushed through. And now, when I am having this day where I want to just sleep, I am still here, writing. It has been a good 28 days. A lot has happened. just in this period I was able to clear two of my debts, and in a mionths time, I would be able to reach that emergency fund goal that I had initially planned, albeit all the little road blocks that seem to...

I got late again, but in all, it wasnt so bad. Only that they suddenly implemented the no tardiness policy which comes suspiciously because of my recent alling outs. Anyway, I got through the day. Good news is, my grandma continues to feel better and the doctors say that she will be released from the hospital tomorrow. This is really great news. Just this day, I came across an article on investing groups and I did not hesitate to join all of the groups mentioned there. And so I asked the question that has been bothering me all this time. I hope that I would get a great answer from this group. I have high hopes. On another hand, I think maybe it's time to sit around and form a strategy in light of the recent developments in work. I mean, I have always thought of quitting but this time I am already sure that I should quit by the time I finish my contract. I mean, I already have no bonds to pay and the only thing left is the contract. From my calculations, I still have nine months to ...

This day may be the worse day yet. You know those days when everything around you just doesnt go your way? I've had the same experience of it today. While I always pray that everyday would be a great day, there is always that day when you feel that God just took a break on you and wouldnt listen to yoir needs, and allows you to suffer through that day. I know that wasnt his intention but then I cant help but feel that way after today.  To start the morning, I woke up an hour late just because we had a bad night with my grandmother in the hospital. Then I couldnt find a tricycle just in time, making me walk a couple hundred meters before I finally got one. That took a toll because it made me miss the last bus, making me on my own to look for any chance of a ride. After what seemed like half an hour, I was desperate enough to get on a very full bus, and I had to stand all the way all the while looking at the men who because of the hardships in life seemed to have forgotten the ways o...

My grandmother was suddenly rushed in the hospital, so I'll be quick about it.  Thankfully, she's doing fine now. But they still have to confine her and do some procedures on her but then the first four hours of panic is over. Now it's more on visiting and medications. I am thankful that it was just a mild stroke this time. You know, my dad also went in the same conditions but thankfully there were a lot of people to save her this time. Surprisingly, after I prayed to God I felt calm and stopped worrying. I only hope that I wont grow overconfident about this and always conclude that things will turn out fine because of God. Well, technically it does. But you know, I am still not ready to lose yet another member of the family. It's something that I pray to God for, that he will not allow things to suddenly happen unless I am consciously prepared for it. Still, in my dad's case I will never be actually prepared for it. Who would? Even so, the amount of support he sent...

Sunday again! And I dont have anything to say in particular. Oh well. I can just talk about my experiences in youtube. You know, back in the early 2004, when I just had enough internet speed to view youtube, it became my refuge from redundant TV shows. But then, the speed back then was too slow, that you really reserve your youtube viewing when there isnt anything else to do. The more smart way is to download it and watch it offline. These days, I dont have to do it, and so the amount of videos I download has gone down tremendously. And anyway, despite our reputation for having so slow of an internet speed, it has really come so far that I have long forgotten the days when I had to be patient and more resourceful if I ever want to watch something. If I need to download something. In fact, I rarely go to mirc anymore. And this is something because I can easily find it when looking in google. So then, I am thankful for it. But still, the times have changed where you have to be more skill...

When you slack off, it gets addicting. As you can see from the turn of events, it got so hectic and I became too careless that my two week formed habit was disrupted the moment I felt tired. I mean, the first night out was something I recovered from but then the second day, they were all for a night out again, something you cant refuse. I was able to go home so late that I dont have the strength to write about something anymore. Then came the next day, and apparently, my mum had a bit of money she received and suddenly wanted to eat out. So naturally, we ate out very late that even though I got home early, I still could not write. Then came Friday. It was all okay. But then this is genuine slacking off because I just discovered a new anime and it was very addicting enough for me to lose track of time. All these excuses aside, I really hope that I continue this 30 day series even though I have the tendency to slack off and everything. As I had discovered recently on, that its alright as...

I am finally home and am early! It's all thanks to God. He probably planned it in advance. Well, thanks as well to my office mate Niel, who happened to live in Almar. So with all of this, a big thank you! Which gives me time to write for the day since I'm not as exhausted as I would be. Today we went bowling. It's not the typical competition bowling where I had to do my best and be nervous all the time, it's the relaxed version of bowling, where no one really cares about your score and you eat tons of food. The only score you'ld care about is your own, and I have actually done pretty well when I'lm not nervous. Only that, I can't help but remember the good bowling memories when we were in a tournament and everyone has to do their best. I've seen so good techniques that I feel like no one in my team can actually compare to our usual players back then. A strike for them is usual, most of the time, they strike or spare. It's not unheard of to get double...

I spent the whole day not doing anything! And it's great. On second thought, it did look like something I would also do on a typical workday, except that I would be in the office doing the least productive thing in the world, but just for today, I can lay down while doing it, and it was geat. I was able to watch three movies and the major part of the season 24 of the Simpsons, all while pulling an all rounder for the levels in memrise. I had fun, I was able to relax. Tomorrow, it will be back to reality again, and I dont even want to go back because they purposely set the day to be very long. As in up to 7pm at the earliest and 9pm at the most. I might get back home late at night. It's so bad that way. Still, not as bad as the nights I had to deal with when I was in my old job. I mean, It might even be earlier than the nights I was forced to have and even in the slackest season my earliest time back at home was no earlier than 10:30. Times like this I say to myself it could be ...

Since today is Sunday, I reminisce on what God has given to me for the past years. One of the more significant is being able to fast. Three years ago, just months after my father died I was in a lot of stress due to the aftershock of what happened and the stress coming from the audit season. There were a lot of times where I am tempted to end my life - and there was even an opportunity to do so. In my old work, our company is in the middle of rennovating their offices, but then at that time operations were halted in favor of audit season. Well, I dont exactly know the reason but for that whole season, the office for rennovation was totally vacated and if there were people at that time they were quiet about me being there. I first discovered that spot when we had an argument with my boss and it led me in tears again. I usually cry in the bathroom and I wanted to be left alone but then my team mates would follow me and try to console me. I know that they are just wanting to do their best...

As long as I do the ending. For the course of my writing career I have created things that I havent begun, and things that I havent finished. I can no longer remember the things I havent started but what is bothering me is the things I want to finish but I cant. Well, its not like I cant, but then I get stuck in the middle and procrastinate, get excited for the ending that I forget what was in the middle. Yeah, these things are the ones that I always mull over and continue every now and then, but at the end of the day I see myself far from the ending than when I started. Endings are great. It just gives a great feeling for me when I finish a story, and it feels like a signal for me to start anew. A new beginning. There are a million possibilities. And so, you can imagine just how frustrated I am for not being able to finish what I have started. On reading stories, or starting a series, or anything that I find will take me a long time to finish, one thing I usually do is to go ahead and...

Curently, I am suffering from toncilitis so it'ls hard to speak. Fortunately writing here does not require a speaking voice so I can still do it. I want to use this opportunity to tell something related to this.  I don't hate chocolates. There are only quite a few people who do and I am not the exception.  I mean, who doesnt eat chocolate once in a while? Even in the Harry Potter universe it is used to recover from dementors. Still,  I a sometimes forced to hate it, and sweets in general. Why? Because, I could not tolerate sweet things, my tonsils, that is. I could not allow the taste to linger in my mouth, or else it would really irritate my mouth and my tonsils get sore. Afterwards depending on the intake I would face the consequence of eating it. Sometimes I even get a fever. So, every time I eat chocolate, whether it be a bite or two, I am required to drink at least three glasses of water immediately, to flush out the sugar in my throat. Three glasses is the minimum. ...

These days I am always on the lookout for an extra income. You know that phase, when you finally realize that your salary is no longer enough for you to get by, I mean, when you calculate so thoroughly that at the rate you're going you wont have the money enough to afford a decent living. I am in that stage right now, especially when I discovered just how crude the policies in salary increases are in my company (it's barely noticeable) So you look for different ways but you just cant catch a break. I must admit that I am hopefully wanting for this blog to make a profit someday, if I become good enough in writing. But as of the moment I can only see myself writing for an audience of one. There may even come a time when I finally realize that I dont have enough talent for this writing gig and call it quits, but not today.  Aside from that I try to make an extra income off of survey sites and youtube videos. Unfortunately, the only ones that did work is the survey site but then it...

You may have one of those things in your past. When you were young and you thought that you are free to do anything in the world. When you felt like every moment should be seized and every dream should be fulfilled. These days it can easily be described as YOLO. You know, you only live once. But then one day you wake up all grown up and have taken a few responsibilites here and there, with the wisdom enough to do better than use Yolo as an excuse. And then, on one fateful day you see the remnants of what you did in the past and just have a look of disbelief and suddenly ask yourself what really made you do it in the first place. You know, the after effects of those wild things you did when you were young and free. I happened to have that same experience today, and it was equally shocking as the last time I had it. Still, many people can consider me a late bloomer. I was right in that. In my student days, I studied like my life depended on it and literally had no time to dawdle around o...

We're halfway there! In honor of the halfway there mark, I would like to talk about my 5 year job as an auditor. The song was something memorables it marks the halfway mark of our struggles as an auditor. It was like a relief for everyone around. Too much stress from overwork, filing problems, month long all nighters weigh down on anyone so fast that there comes a time when you dont care anymore.You just want it to end. For five years I have experienced that, and I know the feeling. There were times when I have cried too much and no longer feel anything anymore, and just keep doing whatever is needed in order for the job, or in my case jobs, to be over. Because thankfully, the filing date will happen no matter what happens anyway, and win or lose, I can still finally sleep. Still, having a song now and then isnt so bad and in fact I think most of the time it's what keeps me going. I remember, during the audit season, when the bosses are away and we are still in the office at th...

Less than a year to go before the presidential elections and he media has started a coverage frenzy on who would be the potential candidates. When I was younger I feel so hyped out whenever this period happens and even though I am too young to vote, I was still excited. Now, more than three elections later, times have changed, I have witnessed a lot of those politicians say their piece, have their chance in the limelight, be suddenly forgotten, eat their words, join a former rival group, the works. I've somehow develped an apathy towards them. Like no matter who the politicians would be, it would not make a difference. They are all one and the same. They would cheat, change sides, do some shameless advertising, all for he sake of a win. All for the sake of money. I've seen them unravel their true sides. The ones you thought were heroes were just as controversial as the villain they were trying to fight. It was all a matter of perspective. The oned who reveal the information to ...

Not to sound too morbid or anything, but I just want to think of things that I don't really get a chance to thin about, so anyway. I would like to think about death for now. To be clear, I still dont want to die at the moment. I feel like there is still a lot of things I can do in my lifetime. I want to do more things and I want to make a greater difference. But then there is still a great sense of maturity that can only be achieved by witnessing a significant number of deaths in my lfieteime. When I was a kid, the worst fear I can think about is dying, and meeting death, even seeing dead persons. I feared walking in tombstones and I really dont like looking at dead people. I also hated horror stories (this would probably be true for me for a longer time).  Now, I still do not want to die, for the reason that I wanted to do more in my life. But then if there comes a time, maybe even as soon as tomorrow that God tells me to go with him, I will give up all the things I hold on to the...

I came home late from an intercessory seminar so I will just make it quick. I am an intercessor. Not a lot of people know this, that I recently joined a ministry specifically made for people who want to pray for the needs of others, and I'd like to keep it that way. The feeling of being an unknown superhero is a bit enticing for some reason. It was not my intention to be an intercessor at first. I was not even familiar that there was such a ministry since they are hidden within the community. When I was thinking of serving The Lord, I was thinking of being an usher or a part of a choir, or probably do some admin stuff. Those things I must admit are things that I am not so good at. For one, I am a bit of a shy introvert and my voice is not so special, and probably is still a bit out of tune on particularly high note. I wouldnt even mention my admin skills, only that I have lost quite a number of documents during my time as an auditor. Getting to know the hidden ministry was a bit of...

Thinking out loud. With the upcoming school classes and tthe problems concerning it, I find myself remembering the earliest childhood memory I have as a kindergarten student. Honestly, most of my childhood memories somehow were wiped out of my brain that this is the most vivd memory I can think of. That is, waiting for my older sister to finish classes. Being the second child, I had no say in choosing which school I went to --that right belonged to my sister. I also didnt have the choice in the arrangements as to our school bus and teachers. I remember watching my classmates go home while I have to wait for my sister so that we can go home together. I never really understood it at first, all I knew is that I wanted to go home early. There were times where I would sneak out but they will see me and tell me to go back and wait for my sister. I hated waiting even then. I dont remember much but probably most of the time I would just wander off in the playground or in the library. It was pr...

I wonder what to talk about next. Maybe we might as well talk about the most talked about topic these days, that is - the west valley fault. The timing was too perfect for panic. Nepal just got hit by two more than 8 magnitude earthquakes and the Bohol quake was still fresh in everyone's minds. It was no surprise when people started getting scared or hyped up and panicky over the internet. Some people even went out of their way to rally other people from social media to pray for the philippines this early on. There were some people who thought that what we were panicking about already happened and was already on a verge of prayer ralllies and if not for the correction of information they would have proceeded on to create a fund raiser or something. In the midst of this, I am quite thankful that the information was so quick in dissemination that by this time a lot more people were informed and were clear about what to do. In just one day, maps showing the fault lines were already av...

Modern day death note. Nine days in and I cant help but think of the possible topics I can write here just by looking at my previous entries. At the same time, I cant help but also think of the possible trouble I can have. These days I feel like using the internet is scary. There is only a thin line that protects the privacy that you used to abuse when it was still new and everyone was still trying it out for the first time. These days I am so afraid of using facebook for status updates because of the many reports of cyber bullying and the media actually condoning it. When people see something they think is offensive to them, they go into a sharing frenzy to the point that it gets featured in the news, and soon they would even announce your identity in national television. It was so unlike around ten or five years ago. I remember back when making your own website was something that meant writing in code, and you want to try it out in free hosting sites that have a lot of limitations. Y...

I get the feeling that repeating a topic would be cheating. So no more topic about cats or mlm or zombies. Those things may be fun to write but I guess if I allow myself to continue it might only focus on those things. So then, the topic I can think about is the video I was assigned to watch this day. It was about family meetings. I must admit that if I have a family of my own I would want to adapt this weekly meetings. Maybe after church we go to a nice place, have fun, and relax, and afterwards discuss our plans for the week. If I cant afford it then I would have to adapt and just make it once a month. But still I want to do it. Wishful thinking aside, I really do want to have a family of my own but as of the moment I could not find any glint of hope that it would ever happen. They say that thoughts attract things so maybe this is just all in me. Still, there is something that I can implement now, even without kids. That is, telling our story.  My mother loves doing that. I didn’...

I was caught up in idling a bit that I had to rush writing for now. So for now I guess the only thing I can do is write until I fall asleep, and well, when you think about it it’s a bit of a challenge now that I can feel my eyes close at the same time. We went to mass this day and I guess a lot of times things aren’t the same as compared to what we are expecting. This day is also the same. I guess what I am trying to say is that maybe I expect too much. But still something in my heart tells me that I should give it another shot and continue on, because what is happening may not be what I expected because it is still not time. But perhaps things are happening in the perfect time after all.  Speaking of what wouldn’t happen, last month I was reading World war Z, the book about zombies. Im not at all scared of zombies before especially since the only time I get exposed to it are through anime and movies, and they don’t really pose a threat until they become dramatically increased just...

Since it’s a weekend, we can talk about our favorite things today. Anime! I did not intend to rhyme this but well, I cant think of a better introduction. Let me give a bit of background about myself and anime. I am one of those “Edsa babies” they were talking about. You know, those kids born in the year 1986, when the people power revolution happened and martial law came to an end. Meaning, I did not get to actually experience martial law but since the event was still fresh in people’s mind, this subject often comes to a hot topic in class when our teachers remember back in the day. Why did I mention this when I am supposedly talking about anime? Well, growing up as a child without any access to cable TV, we had a limited amount of anime to chose from. To name a few, there was the classics such as Cedie, Dog of Flanders, Princess Sarah, Xmen, Super Mario, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. All of these were anime worth watching in my opinion, and at this time Dragonball has not even reached...

Yesterday, I started and finished a rather short but powerful anime that is gaining popularity and was recommended to me by a friend – Death Parade. It’s a story that deals with what will happen after we die, you know, the judging of souls. This is the Japanese version of life after death is very similar to our own popular beliefs, that is, they have a version of heaven and hell as well as the king of death who judges souls on where they should go. But I guess they added a Buddhist factor of being reincarnated or going to the void, and the assumption that the arbiters- the people who judge souls are essentially bartenders who create a desperate situation in order to see through the dead persons’s true intention. The story is amusing, I mean, I wouldn’t be able to finish watching it in one day if it wasn’t. it has the right amount of drama for it to be entertaining but then the end part of it was a bit weird, not that it ruined the whole story or anything.  Anyway, the anime made me...

I absolutely have no idea what to write about this time. Yeah, someday I might come up with a better excuse but today is simply not the day. At the top of my mind, there are two things I really want to talk about. The first is about anime and the other is about network marketing. These two subjects I am equally passionate about, only for different purposes and reasons. I will talk about network marketing for now, because I have a lot of things to think about when it comes to anime. But when it comes to network marketing, well, the one thing that instantly comes to my mind is “No”. This does not mean I am negative or close minded. I am open to hear any kind of opportunity. I guess I could not properly explain myself unless I tell what I experienced about it.

I decided to rewrite this in the same theme because, well yesterday I celebrated the birthday of my two cats Alice and Catherine Some people may say its weird. A lot would assume that it’s not a big deal. When I was younger, things like this may not have mattered. But then today it’s a different story.

Well, this happened to me yesterday when I was writing about cats. I was just about to save it when it crashed on me and I could no longer see any traces of it in my ipad. That’s probably what I get when I use my ipad on an app that apparently does not have autosave. Oh well. I put my heart on that one but I guess I just have to do a remake.

What to post for the day? Honestly, I am so tired at work that I barely even thought about it. But then that would just easily cut what could have been the longest chain I had in weeks...because I wasnt able to follow up at all. Well, maybe I can just talk about the new LTFRB app about Friendtrip.

I would like to start using the one thing that has recently struck an issue in my life, that is, eating. Why?

I figured that by the rate I'm doing I wont be able to meet the goal for the month so I decided to change it up a little bit.

Sure, I made a lot of promises in my lifetime. Mostly, to myself. I could not count the many times that I broke my promise to myself. I say it's okay but I am hurting inside. But I can't do anything but move on.

I know that a lot has been said about the subject but...

Writing Challenge for May! Try to post any article, anything at all, with at least 500 words in the next 30 days. In order to remove the jittery feeling of trying to make sense of anything. It doesn't have to be related to anything, just write whatever is on your mind. This may or not even be viewed by anyone. The only thing needed is to just write away in 30 days.